you and i

so, maybe
some lives are meant to be
a p a r t
andyetalwaystogether

i tremble

the night coils around me,
turning me into a hyperbole
of darkness
it spills
through the curtains
slashing shadows
across the room
lit in anticipation
of what may happen
when the fault lines
below
decide to do shift,
leaving the trees shivering
houses swaying
and hearts
forever wrecked

the night
rattles my soul
eroding me
and crushing me
under this unimaginable weight
of what will forever be broken
because you drifted away

stolen kisses?

what is there to give you?
  words again?
even as you held me close
i could only think
of how you smelled
like some wet things
i dreamed of
as a child
maybe things i touched
in a dream
i never wanted to let go of

i never want to let you go

so...

this has become my place to go to, again
like it was all those years
you were gone

now, maybe this is my place for good

in splinters

all the days you were in that other continent,
did you experience days
when time was filled with air
and the air filled your lungs
and you felt choked on it forever?

did you
dream
of a time when
maybe you and i would meet again

we would look into each others eyes
and you'd tell me everything is forgotten
and forgiven
because nothing else
but what reflects
in these eyes matter?

my days turn out like that now--
i dream of a time when this exile will be over
and then, maybe you will hold my hand again and say
we will always be like this

lull

how can this possibly be us?

this quiet.

we can only be the storm

never the calm after

you didn't

it is hard to believe
you were just steps away

we stayed
where we were

and then
i just walked away,

half hoping
you would come after me.